I’m going out for ice cream now, so byeee :)
TAG! State 15 facts about yourself and pass it on to 15 of the nicest tumblr users <3
Thanks for tagging me! Let’s see what I can come up with :)
- Apples are my favorites. If I could only eat one type of fruit for the rest of my life, it would have to be apples.
- I like silence. I never listen to music when I’m alone, unless I’m in my car.
- I rarely ever watch movies. I have no patience.
- I don’t read near as much as I want to. Having said that, please recommend your favorite books?!
- I miss Georgetown a lotttttt (not just because of the cupcakes)
- I’m a morning person!
- I took ballet for most of my life and am still overly aware of my posture as a result
- I love and miss being on stage. I’m such a perfomer!
- Poor manners are my biggest turn off
- I threw out most of my excessive nail polish collection in one of my “you-don’t-deserve-to-own-anything-you-greedy-pig” fits. I now own like 3.
- I own loads of lipsticks (and keep losing them in all of my purses, ooops!)
- I just made an instagram! Follow me at calories_shmalories!
- I’m allergic to pistachios
- I collect weird things (like socks)
- I’ve traveled a lot but there’s still so many countries I’d like to see! Japan being one of them.
I had lunch by the pool this afternoon. It triggered so many wonderful childhood memories!
I had baby carrots and a diet coke to go with this. Ofc this didn’t leave me full for long so I had some wheat thins with whipped cream cheese (tha bomb!) a little later.
Just thought I’d share. I’m such an adult. Such an adult. (Daddy would be throwing a tantrum if he knew, haha)
Maybe I shouldn’t have had that huge vanilla latte and a big diet coke. Maybe this barista can’t handle her caffeine after all.
7/22/14 - I need a hug
#not doing well right now
#eating disorder recovery
Alright so it’s my day off and I’ve been up since 6.30 am. I am not normal. Today’s been a big roller coaster… and it’s not even over yet. I feel like I have binged even though I know that I haven’t. I can’t seem to shake that feeling.
I accidentally skipped my snack and then had to postpone lunch because I went grocery shopping. And of course that takes me two freaking hours - so the late lunch left me a starving, anxious mess in between. I then had lunch and am now feeling a bit better. It’s always so hard to pick myself up after feeling anxious, it just won’t let me go. It’s like a permanent marker on my day - it won’t let me wash it off, no matter how hard I try.
I had a good time at the pool until these two Negative Nancy’s from my neighborhood startet talking to me. They went on and on and on about Obama Care and how much they hate living here and how much they miss Washington DC and that the pool’s always either too warm or too cold, blah blah blah. I wanted to yell and scream at them to leave me alone but of course I didn’t say anything.
Now I’m sat on my bedroom floor, not knowing what to do because I’m overwhelmed and anxious. I really wish I had some anxiety meds. Does anybody know of any good OTC anxiety meds? Suggestions are more than welcome!
I’m waiting for the thunderstorm to pass but I’ve been waiting for like an hour. I guess I’m stuck here! Ugh. I’m hungry. Need to go get foooood.
Hey food, thanks for helping me think clearly now
#eating disorder recovery
This whole ‘eating during the day’ thing still blows my mind. Why haven’t I tried this sooner? I now eat five to six times a day (as opposed to two) and I feel amazing about it. I don’t feel the need to eat obscene amounts of food in one sitting anymore. And as a result, my mood’s more stable and I actually have the energy to get through the day without crying.
One thing that I do find a little hard though is to eat before I’m hungry. I am so used to waiting until I’m literally starving (and crying) - that’s a huuuuge change there. I am very proud of myself for being to able to challenge that though; t’was about time.
Today for example I had oatmeal as a snack. As a snack! Normally I wouldn’t under any circumstances even have a snack, let alone freaking oatmeal. I did though - I added cookie butter and peanut butter chips. Admittedly I do feel quite uneasy about this, especially since I have to have dinner with my boyfriend (who requested pizza for tonight).
The beauty of eating regularly is, at least for me, that it helps me rationalize many disordered thoughts. Isn’t it odd how adequate nutrition does that? Like, how can eating more (and regularly) make me feel so much better about my body than starvation ever did?
I can think clearly now.
Lunchables again! I have not much to say though, life is good. Enjoy your werkends or whatever is left of it.
Someone once told me, "we have 60,000 thoughts in a day. Some of those thoughts are going to be mean and ugly and untrue. Just let those thoughts float away." Let those anxiety ridden thoughts about weight and "feeling fat" just float away honey. They don't matter. You deserve to be happy love. After all, CALORIES SHMALORIES! (; xo
I hope you don’t mind me posting this publicly but I would really like to keep it - and I feel like my blog is the perfect spot for it. That was the sweetest message you’ve just sent, really. It’s a very good reminder for all of us. My therapist once told me that “Thoughts are just that. Thoughts can’t hurt you, thought’s aren’t actions.” I seem to forget every now and then but it’s so important.
All my love to you sweetheart!